dear life 94

dear life,
had i told you before that solitude is my best friend, giving me the gift of words and inspiration? my best enemy, reviving memories - memories i am happy to have lived through, sad to leave, so nostalgic to remember; memories i am sad to have lived through, happy to leave, so not so crazy about to remember.
and the amazing thing is that this solitude not only can bring you pain and joy in different occasions, it can push you in the middle of both at the same time, leaving you confused of how to describe yourself, your feelings at the moment, leaving you confused of whether to like the solitude or just run away from it? maybe it is all the pain that makes the joy so joyful! don't know. guess i am just losing it.